WTF. Every one leaves me with no faith. Please God... save me...... Save me from this world where no one beilives in me. Put me some where where i am wanted. Some where that doesn't shove it in your face thatt you aren't normal. What is normal now? Floating with the crowd or being you?What's reality? is it what every one thinks of you or what you think of yourself. Love always fails, Love will never last. Love isn't a sacred bond. Love is the fear of not finding somebody else who cares about you as much as this person does. Love is fear. Love is the most powerful thing in the world something that lifts you up by imagination and then tear you down like an old abandoned house. a house empty with memories that you will always look back apon then laugh then tears wishing for a time freeze. But you know. When people acutally figure how to freeze time but you can still live. How will you know that that was the most important thing that you can think of. Why am i rambling so much. All that i'm after is a life full of laughter, but reality breaks through so all i get is a life full of sadness and hatred. Is Love what everyone is chasing for? Why aren't i running with them? Why am i sitting down on a curb watching. Why is that all the good things always so hard to find. I will try so hard to do this time around. I wish i was like back in second grade that my favorite dream is when the icecream man gave me a free ice cream. Where your parents did everything for you. A part of me is dead and in the ground.
