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Hey, guys....

Soo, if you read the last entry, you'd have seen me wigging out about losing my friend's very important notebook.

Well. I found his notebook.

Turns out it was in my last class of the day. Our instructor kept us after class which was pretty s**t of her. I ride the bus occasionally, and they fill up fast and leave swiftly. So I was feeling very manic.

I left the notebook when I was rushing to walk someone to their bus. I ended up staying after in the library and that's when I realized his notebook was missing in action. I was unbelievably relieved when I found it. I didn't even give it back to him today, though. He told me he misses it, and that he stayed up without it.

I said replied back with something about having half his soul, and he said, and I quote, "I like that fact. I trust you."

Flutter.

So, if you've kept up with all of these journal entries, you may remember another guy I talked about in previous ones. Yeah, he's gone. I don't know where he's been. I know he's been avoiding me, though. He always came to our hangout place in the morning (before classes start) and now he doesn't. I felt like I had a part in his absence. Ever since he saw me and my other friend (who liked me at the time, but I didn't have those feelings toward him) playing around with each other, he has disappeared.

He changed something about his appearance too.. I hadn't saw him for a week and when I did I was shocked. I was with the friend I was flirting with, then I turned around and he was staring directly at me. Our eyes quite literally locked on to one another. Then my eyes widened when I saw what changed about him. I was shocked as ********. Then he said, "Don't look at me!" So I turned away. I was covering my mouth and the friend I was messing around with asked me what was wrong and I just shook my head. I'm not sure I like what he did with his hair. I don't think it was cut correctly.

Have you ever had a friend that you really care for just disappear from your life for no reason? Leave a comment, I will always read them.

I know he's in class because I caught him looking at me sometime this week when me and two other people were headed to see the nurse. He swiftly turned his head when he saw me start to look at him.

I'm just wondering what the hell did I do? And why can't we talk about it?

I lost him, and he's about to lose me.

How was your day today? I hope it was good.

(I actually went through some more drama today that I'm not going to get into, don't feel like talking about that.)

Don't forget that I ******** with you. Stay true to who you are, if that you tries to do good.