think by signing that piece of paper back in may or april or whatever, I basically gave away part of my soul... gonk
no seriously, now that we had a little training, I think I'm in waaaaaaaaaaay over my head.
because frankly, my dear, I don't give a damn. about any of this stuff. lawl.
but, it'll be good for me, methinks.
*shrug* whatever, I guess.......
i feel sick.
next month is gonna be really hard, and in august, I move away to someplace i don't really wanna go........
in actuality, I don't want to go to college.
but i don't want to stay at home.
just have to keep telling myself that I can yet formulate living arrangements someplace other than the midwest....
I'm getting glimpses of my dream house in my imagination. ;P
SO IN THEORY, this shall be the busiest time of my life.
because I don't ever intend to balance two and a half jobs, be royalty, and do two million volunteer things all at the same time EVAR AGAIN.
EVAAAAAAAR.
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Columbia kids are coming back tomorrow.
Kinda upset about the whole thing, actually....
You see, Mexico was a HUGE culture shock for me. No drinking the water from the tap, poverty everywhere, no decent food, no one knowing what's going on...
Columbia apparently wasn't like that.
It looked more like home than the yucatan. They had nice clothes, were bathed, had nice living arrangements, had all the amenities, and STEAK.
freaking STEAK IN SUDAMERICA.
and PARKS. WELL TAKEN-CARE OF PARKS.
and plazas
and todas la cosas que no mentiona.
or crap.
idgas about spanish anymore.
never did, never will.
stare
wonder if they had any milk. I know when we went to the yucatan, there wasn't any. *tears*
freaking STEAK. can you freaking believe it?!?!?!?!
oh, and the G twins look VERY similar in the pics. I had to study one of both of them for a few minutes before I decided who was who lol.
county road twelve was horribly amazing driving on tonight.
had I had my car, I would've died.
but, I had the suburban in 4-wheel drive theeeee entire way. :] and the wipers even when it wasn't raining lol.
never fishtailed THAT bad in the suburban before tonight... xDD
almost as bad as having to drive in a field... terrain was smoother, but there were puddles that would up-and-greet the windshield and knock my visibility down to ZERO for a few seconds.
pahahahahaha.
CB, I'm alone.
I'll always be alone.
constantly surrounded by people, but they don't really know me.
to them, I'm shy and quiet.
the one who's "talented with many talents" (yup, read the back of a senior pic I signed up for... pahahaha)
the one who does her own thing, and it's a pain to include her.
*le sigh*
CB, so much to do.
one day at a time, I guess...
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