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Please kill me and end all my misery... Every girl I like ends up wanting someone else.... Hell even my close friends have given up hope for me... Nobody believes in me and neither do I... I hate myself. All I am is a walking failure.. Why the ******** can't I find someone you might ask? Because of a few reasons, Im ugly. Im a nerd, Hell im everything a girl DOESN'T want...... Why can't god just strike me down and end all of my suffering.. Im sick of seeing everyone happy when I can't. I want to feel like they do... But evidently I can't and never will be... Every little happy thing in my life is ALWAYS taken away from me leaving me depressed and miserable. While the other person just moves on and date 50 other ******** guys.... Im a backup... It's all I'll ever be... And hell im not even a backup anymore. Im the guy women don't want to go near... Just ******** kill me pleaase.. I don't want to live anymore... Im sick of hiding my feelings... But nobody will listen to me and they all tell me im just a sack of s**t and I need to cheer up.... Nobody understands how I feel.... Especially when girls tell me I can get any girl I want... Well the one girl I want wants someone else so what the ******** is the point in trying anymore... It's as useless and worthless as I am...