This Christmas has been very difficult.
My grandfather dies, my mother is arrested for hot checks, a credit card company is claiming I owe 1000 dollars and I have never owed a card in my life, and now my Uncle has died on Christmas Eve...
So much is happening, so much change, and I find myself just feeling numb over it all. What more can I do? How else can I handle it?
I need a job, I need a distraction.
On top of that, it doesn't help that one of the people who was suppose to be my friend has not been there for me. She cares to much about shopping to be there for me. I feel so betrayed. So hurt. We use to not be friends, I'm starting to remember why.
At least I still have my best friend Jessica. Her and Cara are there for me at least and Troy has been by my side the whole way. I love him so much. I hope this Christmas will be memorable. I made him a penguin. He heart penguins 3nodding .
I think my grandmother (the one who was married to my diseased grandfather) is going to die from loneliness and a broken heart. She is talking about how lonely she is, even when everybody is there around her and how much she is missing my grandfather. I hope, no matter what the outcome, that she doesn't feel this way for long. I love her so much.
On that note, my mother pisses me off. I feel like she is taking advantage of my grandmother and little brother. She is spending money that nobody has for nice stuff like hd tv, dvrs, two cars, nice cloths, nice stuff in general, and so much more. She is causing stress and now this whole thing with the hot checks.
To be honest, I think she is the one who got the credit card... we will find out soon I guess. I still have to send out the word to capital one. Actually I'm waiting for word from them. I sent an email and to be honest with you all the reason I did that instead of call or mail is because it cost to send mail, I'm too much of a scarey cat to talk to someone in person and to be honest it causes me so much anxiety that I just don't know if I can handle it.
Since it is the holidays I figure I could try email over the holidays and if they don't get back to me by Tuesday then I will send out the mail. Send the info that they need and if they need more they can give me a call.
I have never had to deal with this before. I mean, I have but I could talk to the face to face and it wasn't this scary.
Well that is all for now. Going to have my first Christmas away from my family. Gonna cook Christmas dinner for my love and his friend heart
I'm excited blaugh
 Neokogirl · Sun Dec 25, 2011 @ 03:39am · 0 Comments |
