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Ok so I was browsing youtube and all these depressing song that I like and I decided to make a playlist of the ones that reminded me of my Elementary years, all the friends I had, all the fun, and then I realized I might never see them again. I never got a real goodbye to any of them. and I regret it. you have no idea what it feels like to be torn away from your friends-- three times. the first time was when I was in the first grade. My best friend, Mubarak, told me he was moving away to coon rapids. I thought it was ok and I asked him if he was still coming to school here. He said no and I told him I was going to miss him. and then the bell rang to go home. I never saw him again. the second was in the second grade, My mom told me I was going to switched schools and I asked why, and she said that she found a better school for me (that turned out to be totally UNTRUE). I told all my friends the next day that I was going to switch schools and they asked why, and I said exactly what my mom told me. they said they were going to miss me and I told them that too. On the last day of school that year, I spent half of the day crying in the bathroom because I didn't want to say goodbye. I only managed to say goodbye to my bestest best friend: Noah Valento (OMG, if you are reading this, Noah, Then PLEASE PM ME AND TELL ME EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED AFTER SECOND GRADE!!!!). The third time, was in the fifth grade. My parents were getting divorced, and My mom told me that we were moving to another town. I got all sad and asked if we could just get another house that's still in the city, but she said the town we were moving to would give me a better education than where I lived at the time. The next day I told my two friends: Burshon, and Avionna, that my parents were getting divorced and I was going to move away at the end of the school year. They were sad to hear that, but didn't act too sad about it. I was kind of glad to leave that school, I never felt like I fit in at the school, I was bullied at that school; verbally, physically, and even SEXUALLY harassed there; all to the point where I nearly committed suicide (I'm glad I didn't though; otherwise my best friend, Ronnie, would be up in heaven with me right now). On that last day of school, I wouldn't go to my classes because I was not only too sad to say goodbye to everyone, I was too scared to go to class. because after the suicide incident, the bullying just got worse and worse, and more teachers were trying to help me out, giving me sensory breaks because they thought all this was because of my autism. they never realized that it wasn't my autism that provoked me, it was everything else. When the bullying got worse, I started skipping class and hiding in the bathroom curled up in a corner with the lights off. I hated that school.
Now I live a happy life, with 10 friends and a good education. I still remember all the days where I felt sad, left out, or dead to the world. I wish I could see them all again. Noah, Norton, Mubarak, Dante, Demetria, Maurice, Asha, Burshon, Avionna, and Angel.



I will always remember them