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This is more of a rant than anything else really so it may end up rather lengthy. Sorry.

I know that every relationship has rough patches nad everything else but I don't really think it helps when the two people in the relationship are as stubborn as each other either. What works for one rarely works for the other and it causes more conflict. It seems to be the case.

Even if you really don't want to conflict it seems to come along at some point and I honestly think it's how you work through it that makes the real difference. Even if you care more for that one person than anyone or thing else, there always seems to be something they can do that gets right under your skin and you can't help but get irritated and unfortunately sometimes talking about the problem just never seems to resolve it. Heck, sometimes it's easier to just get angry about it and get it off your chest. Sometimes that's all we need.

If it's not obvious by now I'm a little cranky with that one special person in my life and I'm terrible when it comes to hiding frustration. I know sooner or later I'll get over it or something will resolve what sparked all this and no matter how much I love her, as I said, some things just get under your skin.

I don't think you realise how hard a legitimate relationship is until you're actually in one. A regular partner you just b***h and argue with until you both hate each other then appologise the next day and things are fine but you can't really do that. You need to at least make an effort to try and understand the other person regardless of what they do and at least hear their side of things. Things need to be sorted out as a couple rather than individuals lest the process is repeated.

Perhaps I'm growing more impatient as I get older, or at least more cynical but either way I just can't drop my current frustration. I'd like to say I need time alone but the thought of spending a day apart from her of my own free will almost makes me sick.

Such is the dilemma of a real relationship. Gotta take the good with the bad. rolleyes

Having said that, I wouldn't have it any other way. 3nodding