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Thank you all for wishing me a happy birthday today. I'm sorry that I've been feeling a bit down lately, it seems that I have fallen and I can't get up - that or I no longer see the need to get up again.

One would think that I'd be happy today, being my birthday n' all, but I'm just so tired. Tired can mean a myriad of things, and it does. Sometimes I just want to sleep, sometimes my muscles ache, and sometimes I just want to do away with myself so I can get some sort of rest. I just keep thinking to myself that everything is going to be over soon. Soon I can rest and do the things I need to do without worrying about my grades. Sometimes I wonder if I am cut out for this college life - I'm a ******** moron. I can't write, I can't put my thoughts to any sort of writing medium, and there is no way in hell I can make a proper sentence.

Ner.

Moron.

No matter how hard I try, I never get any sort of positive feedback. I need some sort of positive feedback in all of this mess, and I get none. I keep pushing and pushing, however the meaning behind it is long gone. I keep pushing for the sake of pushing and nothing else. Maybe I'm sick.

Or just tired.

My body aches and old feelings that I have been hiding are surfacing once again. The only reason I kept certain feelings locked away was the fact that I had to study...just keep focusing on schoolwork and everything will be okay.

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Now for something completely different.

I would like to thank the following.

NightSymphony:
- Purple Nurse Shirt
- Red Satin PJ Top
- Red Satin PJ Bottom

Okugi:
- Brown Trunk

Shadow - Dragon:
- Professional Grade Bib Apron

P.Tweety:
- Single Purple Carnation Bouquet w/ Black Ribbon
- Blue Carnation Bouquest w/ Black Ribbon

sXVampirePaineXs:
1,000 gold

A Mysterious Benefactor (I think I know who it is >__> wink
- Streaked Brown Jeans

TiltedHaloPS44:
- Brown Skirt (Forgot actual name D: )
- Black Glamrock Belt
- Purple Stealth Sleeve thingers
- Black and Red Ties
- Flower on my Head
- Phone thinger

Kei Asaki:
- Seasick Coat

Dark Jono:
- The Blue Parrot






Thank you all so much for thinking of me. I wish there was something I can do to show my appreciation, however I cannot think of anything at this time...I wish to pass out.

D:

Have a good night everyone.