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Whats the first thing I do after turning 20?

Mental breakdown. biggrin

I lost it today, and I'm pretty ashamed. Everything just came crashing down and I started crying, and questioning everything. I needed to cry, but I hate myself for crying in public, making a bad impression and possibly hurting someone's feelings. I'm not mad at anyone. I'm just hurting so much right now.

And after two months of inactivity, my period decided to drop by the moment I went inside Wendy's.

At least I can account for some of my intense emotions, and odd cravings for Taco Bell.

I'm just in a lot of pain right now, physically, mentally and emotionally. Its a giant web of bullshit, and I doubt anyone really cares. Supposedly a couple friends gave a damn, however a couple couldn't even look me in the eye.

Whatever. I'm still on edge, and liable to snap again at any time. I'm so close to finishing off my semester and there is bound to be more stress on the way.

At least I still have some birthday cheesecake.