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So after nights and nights of feeling like for whatever reason I just couldn't sit and take a moment to think here, I've finally gotten a moment. I still haven't checked to see if he ever dignified me. This is ridiculous I know. But I'm not kidding when I say the thought sends me to pieces. I'm so afraid of the possibilities, it's easier to say, 'another day' and go on, because it doesn't disrupt me so much. But I know it's past time to do it. I wonder if this is how he felt towards me, at any time. Ha. I feel like a lot of the time, I sound insincere, but what I do, that's where you can tell what I'm really aiming for. I'm still stuck shuffling my feet, though.
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