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I am waiting. My days are spent waiting around for the camping trip. I'm excited and nervous and scared.

He said he loves me yesterday. Typical fashion for me, we kind of butted heads before and after I reconciled by consoling him, he blurted it out. I won the battle but I won't win the war, lol.

I had an upset stomach last night when I saw him and I'm so mortified that I almost never want to see him again. I just... so humiliated. We have only been dating for so long so it is terrible to think I did that.

I went to TWO parties. Real parties! We played beer pong at each party. First time ever playing, I did really well. We almost won but they retaliated and knocked by win shot away. Second time I played we were up against people that had been playing 4 straight games prior and winning. Second party was better because there was no music. Everyone was just hanging out in chairs and talking. First party the rap music was so loud I couldn't hear anything and the people that did want to talk just pushed their interests upon you or opinions. Blegh. Second was better.

Went to the state fair with boi and he kissed me on the Ferris Wheel, just like I wished. Finally, I got it. It was sort of queer. On Ferris Wheels I feel like I disappear. It is very similar to the feeling of being in water except it doesn't get me high. It usually makes me really calm and sad. When he held me on the ride, I felt grounded. That's a very good thing.

My parents have been hilarious. My mom misses me so much that she complains I am gone too much, lol. She gets lonely without me. It's nice to feel wanted by her and noticed. v w v It is a very very good feeling, especially when I would hangout with her just to keep her company a lot of times. I had things to do but would be with her because I knew it made her feel better. It's nice to see she notices my presence gone.

Christy's birthday soon!

>w<

YAY!

Summer is going by too fast. I miss being online but at the same time, Gaia is kind of turning me off. I don't know what to do with that.