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Although I dislike using the word it seems quite possible that I am becoming more and more "emo" as the days pass. However this I can say without doubt is just a consistent nagging by my subconscious telling me I really can't be ******** giving a ******** any longer.

It's no small secret I have been feeling used (and with good reason) for quite some duration of time no thanks to a multitude of bad relationships but despite no longer being in that situation I find myself still being used in one way or another by people who seem to have their own hidden agendas. Imaginably this is doing wonders for what little remains of my mental state and self-respect/confidence and people ignoring me or acting aloof towards me simply because they don't get what they want from me is seriously beginning to leave me with some sort of social disorder. To compile all this it is utterly depressing to see so many of my entries so blatantly negative. It's fair enough that someone has a bad day every once in a while but all this?