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I'm an incredibly clingy person. I don't know why I am this way, but I am and I always have been. I used to cling to my dad. I was known as his little shadow (which one day I want to incorperate into a tattoo). And then at one point I started clinging to my mom. I would spend all my time with her and I wouldn't leave the house or go anywhere. At one point I was nearly attached to my cousins hip. I just get clingy and I like being with certain people. For some reason my brain just works that way.

I think I am clingy to an annoying extent, which can be sort of scary for me. When it comes to him, I am always wanting to hear his voice or see him. I am always wondering when I will be able to see him in person, when I will be able to hug and kiss him again. I am always wanting to skype with him, even if we aren't saying anything it is really nice to just have him there, knowing that he's there is soothing.

I am also a jealous person. I mean, I don't usually act upon my jealousy. And so far I haven't felt jealous(except for when he cuddles tick tock. That makes me jealous c; ). But on a more serous note, it is bound to happen. I kind of fear when it does happen. I don't really want to be the jealous type but it does happen with me, and I don't really want him to see that side of me.

I am always wanting to cuddle up beside him and play with his hair, listen to his heartbeat and be happy laying next to him. I miss kissing him. I miss looking at him while he is oblivious and smiling because I'm just so happy. I noticed that I smile a lot when I talk to him. Not just because sometimes he points things out, which makes me blush and go into idiot mode, but sometimes I just go into idiot mode because I'm so happy. I haven't been this happy in a long time, and it's absolutely wonderful.