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Everyday i feel this pain in my chest
there is nothing you can do to make it rest
grows heavier every time i see you
its as if i cant follow through
texts from you only make it worst
its like im cursed as i keep diving headfirst
into this verse i start to immerse myself within
heres the spin as i try to turn-in and win
but that grin on your face holds me back
is there something that i lack?

Its like a murder site and im the victim
shine that light towards me and listen to my dictum
going through all this torment
unleashing all these pent up feelings to my full extent
content with the progression
as you teach me this lesson
how to get away with a first degree offense
where is my defense?
or is it too late
once youre fueled with hate

No remedy to heal myself with
not even the smartest locksmith
can unlock the secrets held deep inside
no matter how hard you search you cannot find
what im trying to hide
besides werent you the one who decided
to dessert me
well guess what, as far as i can see
youre just another obstacle from the past
someone i surpassed

now im not sure if i should be angry or depressed
blessed to be alive so i could profess
exactly what you have done
pointed the gun
no hesitation
its like there is no other option
to getaway from this place
to try and erase
all my evil deeds
as i fall to my knees
head blown
still living on my own
but its okay
its my time to get away

this isnt the end its a new beginning
as this nation grows larger as yours keeps on thinning
ray of lights reflecting off
no cough in between as we get ready for blastoff
no Team Rocket
open your eye sockets
so you can see
the words that i speak
the truth behind my scars
the truth behind these bars
the truth behind the lies
the reason for the goodbyes
look into my eyes and feel my pain
the pain that i cannot explain
the pain that you caused
would you like an applause?
your relentless attacks
keep on pushing me back
into a state
i cannot escape
no light in the dark
not even the slightest spark
as i reach out for a hand
to get out of this land
i realize that im not alone
that im not on my own
i got the nation by my side
those few on which i relied
you no longer reign
(its time for you to feel my pain)


the words that i spew
i do because of you
i need no fear of judgement
because we both know thats it true
i try to tell you how i feel
take off the cape
no man of steel
remove the layers of protection
expose Achilles heel
im done trying to appeal
spinning on this wheel
a nightmare so surreal
while im living an ordeal
willing to give life up for you
but with you life has lost its zeal
lets just keep it real
end it seal
playing queen of hearts
but now i deal
see how the cards stack up
ive had enough
treat me like a dog
but you speak ruff
b***h
see your wounds ive stiched
thinking you could dump me
but youve been ditched
run smooth no glitch
dropped the weight
no hitch
you struck out
great pitch
like a scratch
to my itch
your done
so now i shun
the moment i laid eyes on you
my hell begun
wasnt even fun
it seems we've run our course
but i have won
straightned out not sprung
climbing out this hell hole
rung by rung
now i am among
those who lift me
and dont leave me hung
and those who listen dont waste my lung