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~I one day walked down a wide path, swaying to the left and the right i laughed at me freedom, when the path started to shrink my swaying shrank. so began the steddy straight path that i walked down. every once in a while i would lose my footing, but everyone does this, right? but one day the path seemed so dull, i couldnt stand it, i went off into the field. so began the odd journey. ~
for those who dont understand, this is my life. i have no since of direction. i kind of like it that way. but i dont like the holes in the field i fall in.
~one day i came across a blue stone, a stone that means you're lonly. After seeing this stone a ferrite scampered across the ground. of course likpe any other ferrit i chased it. when i finally cought it i was happy, but time passed and my new pet gave me no joy. only sorrow bled from my hands. the family that i had so happily walked along side, with our little problems, soon broke. one day i noticed my ferrit chewing at his paws. i worriy but i am to afraid that if i take my ferrit to the vet, i will get charged with abuse.~
ok here is the explination. i am in a very hard time and i dont know how to get out of it. gus decides that he should smoke and i want to kill him for it. but i care about him, and i dont want to hurt his fealings. i just dont think he should hurt himself this way. so i just sit and watch him kill him self. i cant even hear him talk anymore, all i get out of it is, ....i think of my step dad who just left my mom. he left her with two babies. and she doesnt even have a job. so i dont know what he's thinking, but he was hurting mom. ....I dont know what to do. i know that a phsycaitr...a shrink would only make it worse.. i get messed up that way. ...O.O i'll lye... i'm moving! i'm moving away form it all! ^_^ i dont have to be around this and i dont have to be this way any more! ^^ oh my god! this is great! ok i have to go!:very excited::