I'm not very proud of myself right now. I did a bad thing that I cannot take back, and I feel the reprocussions every time I move my arm. I don't know what moved me to do it, and I'm regretting it even more now. I feel like I've let a lot of people down today, when it wasn't the case.
I've made new friends, talked with old ones, and still I feel depressed. I don't know whats wrong, and theres no way in hell I am going to a doctor again. I'd rather deal with the pain than visit them again.
Tomorrow I'm forcing myself to go to school, I don't want to go. I have to make up so much for English I don't even know why I should be in there. I may take a mercy clause just to get by. But that will lower my quiz score considerably, and I rely on that score to keep me afloat. *sigh* I'm just a real mess right now and I've worried so many people. I've been very selfish to think that no one cared. Perhaps part of that is true. I'll never know.
All I can do now is wonder what will happen next. I can go backwards or forwards, but I no longer care which.
I over reacted as usual and I apologize.
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Stupid-no-Jutsu : The art of being stupid.
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