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-lack of sleep/sleeping in often
-change in diet
-thoughts of suicide
-feeling really angry
-becoming self-critical
-losing intrest in your hobbies
-really concered about your health

Those are signs of depression, just so you know.
Check 'em off, I'll let you borrow my 'feeling good' handbook if you want.

Okay.
-lack of sleep/sleeping in often -yup
-change in diet -yup
-thoughts of suicide -yup
-feeling really angry -a little
-becoming self-critical -no
-losing intrest in your hobbies -a little
-really concered about your health -no

I should have read these a while ago, k, you shouldn't be doing the things your doing. I had this chat with my friends dad, and it changed my life a whole lot, but I'm not saying it's not going to for you, but listen anyways.
You should take pride in what you have become and what your becoming, don't let other people get you down. You weren't created to fail, you were created to suceed in life and live a long and healthy one with the person you care for the most with. I don't know you very well, I've really only talked to you on Gaia, so I can't really say much about you, but I'm sure somewhere in that head of yours your thinking about stopping what your doing, you know your smart and talented, and it doesn't matter what other poeple say, you define yourself.
And if that doesn't do anything for you, then I don't know what will other then asking God for assistance, but then again, a lot of people don't believe in God.

Thank you very much for caring.I appriciate it..

The cutting your finger thing is called masochism. Though it is a very minor case of it, I can't help but worrying about a friend. -huggs- Please, don't do stuff like that to yourself... Theres no need to... Other peoples thoughts, their dissagreements about you... none of that matters. What matters is that you live your life to the fullest and have fun doing it! Belive me when I say, I'm one to know what it feels like to be put down. Did I ever think life wasn't worth it? Of course. But i stuck in there and realized, theres nothing that can take the fun out of life. Belive you can endure and you will.