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Stupid time of the month making my hormones fog my mind. It seems that whenever I near my period I get depressed and clingy. This feeling of emptiness makes me feel so dirty. The need to be around people is highest right now, and knowing that everyone else has something better to do with their time only makes me look at my life and how little I have to do with it. All I do is work, and that is depressing. Its summertime for crying out loud, and I have nothing to do. Everyone else has something else they'd rather be doing than spend some time with me. Andrea has her movies, Jen has her fanfiction, Alexia has her boyfriend, and Tiffany has hers. All I do with my time is sit in front of the computer for a couple hours waiting for the time when I have to get dressed for work.

I hate my period. I hate the hormones, the "need" to have someone that cares about you. I was doing just fine until yesterday. What I feel right now is only due to the abnormal amount of hormones coursing through my body, making me feel terrible. Though I still miss my friends, I only see them once a week, and right there doesn't make anything better.

Nevermind me. I feel like hitting things at the moment, or going back to bed and sleeping till morning. I work eight hours tomorrow, its not like anyone misses me or anything. I try calling them, they're busy, its not like anyone calls me anymore. Well, only if they want something from me.

This sucks. Period.

No pun intended.