Welcome to Gaia! :: View User's Journal | Gaia Journals

Why is it that every time at the end of a school year something bad happens?

This year in itself is becoming a total hell.. with drama, frightening truths, and other s**t like that. I mean.. sometimes I just wish I had a remote to just lower the drama, or push rewind and then replay certain events again so they would just come out different.

This week in it's own was hell...

I mean first there was this whole crash of stress from these stupid projects that teachers were throwing in with 3 weeks of school left and they are due the week before... one of which being a group project where one of my associates had a invalid email address and it didn't send to me so I had to do his part. Especially since I'm kind of in a slump of not getting grounded over the summer... since I can't forge these damn new report cards that they sent out..

The next thing was with one of my good friends, in which I don't want to get into too much detail with, but well... made me almost want to cry and made me almost worry myself to become sick.... it wasn't the most pleasant next few hours at all... and now I can't even look at the clock at a certain time now because of it without remembering.. which is hard since that time also says something else to me.

One of my other friends, who I've known since middle school, she's being devestated since her brother's break up and also finds out with the family that she had been cheating on him for a while. Most people would think of why would this affect everyone, but she was like another member of the family..

The problem with those is that there is nothing to do to ease the pain that they are feeling... I can be there to try and ease it, but there isn't anything I can do to make it go away... make them the way that they were before it happened... when we were all relatively happy, and carefree

The next thing on my list is my mom had to go in to get surgery to remove a sysit, and one of her ovaries... which would have been okay... except for the fact that she didn't tell me anything about it until a week before.. which really stressed me out..

Thankfully relationship problems aren't an equation to this, else I'd go mental... but I'm just going through a hurdle that every relationship goes through eventually.. I mean you only lose your virginity once.. and it's not like I'm afraid, but the one thing that I never want to do in my life ever is to distrust my mother, since she's always been there for me more than anyone I could think of... ever since those horrible times in elementary school when I would come home crying cause the kids at school teased me the entire day..

Anyway.. I was going to have 'the talk' with my mom this weekend but she isn't going to be home for a while.. and I don't want to do anything that might complicate the fact that she had her body opened.. While thankfully I have a boyfriend that is very patient as he can possibly be, even though 'raging hormones' aren't helping this mixture also...

To top it all off.. I have ******** SAT's tomorrow... God I hate ******** life sometimes... hopefully SAT's won't be so bad... and then I can relax on the threshold of summer..