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okay yeah i have some things i want off my chest but right now i just need to talk about one thing. after i write this little thing i will start to write about the thing i need to talk about.

I am not Hott. Do not try to change my mind b/c i know i'm not hott. i look in the mirrior and i see nothing but a young girl who isn't that great in any way. I have no sex appeal in any way (which right now is kinda a good thing). But what i want to look pretty.

I know i'm not pretty either. My hair is bland and straight and i don't want it cut. But i do want to add some life to it. But forget the hair. I still need to talk.

I don't feel great in any way whatsoever. I feel...weird when someone looks at me and i feel i have no sense in fasion either. I don't feel great even when someone says i am. I don't know what it is but i just feel...ugly i guess. Yeah that's the word for it. I ...just don't feel good about my body.

As i have said in another entry i don't like myself in a swimsuit. I feel fat in one. and i have a two piece. I know if i don't like it get a one piece...but i want a tan as well so i wear it anyway.

Also i am kinda pale a little bit. and i have some achene(sp) but i can control it and i do try my hardest to as well. I don't like nail polish and i don't want my ears pierced. Yet all the time my sister and my mother tell me "guys will want to buy you earrings" well my aunt told me not to listen to them b/c there is other things they can buy me they will live and i have listened to her. I think it's b/c my fear of needdles and i know geting your ears pierced shouldn't hurt but i don't care. anyways that's about it.