Me and my friend, Kyle, we had this day planned for a week before hand. We wanted to go to the Pride Fest in Louisville, Kentucky. We were going to go pick up our friend, Toby, who lives in Louisville... and I would be driving. Well. I go to pick Kyle up and his house... but it turns out he's at his Granny-ma's. I go there and we play/talk with his little cousin, Kodi, for quite a bit before Kyle takes a shower and we head out. We get into town and we go and get gas for the trip. It's about a forty-five minute to an hour drive. My lovely Kylie paid for the gas. heart And we head off! Things are fun. We're making jokes and making things awkward on purpose... Wishing we had a video camera to record all of the funny things we're doing. We listened to The Beatles, Midlake, Regina Spektor, and PJ Harvey on the way up there. It's all good. Kyle gives me the directions, which he was horrible at but we only had to turn around once, since I didn't know the way or my way around Louisville at all. We arrive at Toby's house but find out that he did in fact go on the vacation to California. Meh. We really didn't care too much... But we weren't going to go to the Pride Fest then because... well, me and Kyle figured we didn't have enough gay between us to be at the Pride Fest. Toby would've equalled things out a lot more than me or Kyle could. So. We looked at eachother and just took off driving. We went to different shops that we like and bought some cool stuff. Played around, joked, shopped, had fun like always. Finally we need to leave... We couldn't stay all night because I needed to get the car home to Mum so she could work. And while we were heading back... Me and Kyle started discussing our future. While we were laughing... I ran a red light and hit a man in the passenger side of his car. ********' Hell. Immediately I pulled the car over and got out. I cursed. I asked him if he was okay and saw if Kyle was okay... And then I cursed again. ********'. ********'. ********' Hell. I knew that everyone was okay as the thing was happening... because for some reason when I'm in a car wreck... I never close my eyes. (And with photographic memory... it's kind of interesting.) So as soon as I was out of my car... all I could think about was the money I was costing my parents... And I HATE costing my Muther money. I wanted to beat myself into the ground... And Hell, I still do. u.u Me and Kyle handled things farely well. He was awesome about... even tried to make me smile and so did the bus driver who witnessed the accident... I couldn't though. Lately, I've been so depressed anyhow... This really put me in a rut.
My Mum though took things really awesomely... as she does everything. I can't help but love my Mum more than my own life most times. And my step-Dad, man... He made me feel great. When he finally got home to see me he gave me this huge hug and told me that it was all alright and he was just glad I was safe. Talk about a tear-jerker. I was so stressed out that I wanted to cry already... but I have this thing where I never let myself cry. It was hard to keep a straight face then... rolleyes But even though all of my family is taking this so well... I can't help but be horribly pissed at myself. Today... when I woke up... I didn't want to get out of bed because I knew it meant facing my Mum. It was like wearing a sign over my head; "Hey there. I'm the mistake costing you a shitload of money for over half your life."
I do plan on getting a job though... and start help to pay for gas, insurance, and college/living expenses for when I graduate. I mainly want to help pay for my damned part of the insurance since now it will sky rocket. Mum told me that was completely up to me and that it didn't matter. God, how could such an awesome parent like this exist? Her lack of grudging against me is making me hate myself more, I think. Got to make it balance, right? Heh.
So. I guess that's all for my first wreck.
I am going to show you a picture though of what I did to my car. The man I hit, his car was pretty ******** up. sweatdrop
- Couldn't Hate Myself Anymore,
natasha.
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At least you're alright though.....and you didn't end up hurtting anyone. For your first wreck it's not too bad...... *still in shock*
I knew that the red lights were going to come back and bite you in the a** one day..... eek I never imagined it to be so soon though....