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i hate having a ******** breakdown but here i am sobbing over things i can't control.

i feel like it's the summer of 2014 again and there's a hole in my chest and i'm so ******** empty that it aches and i want those pills i was too cowardly to take the first time

i just want to feel whole again but i'm too far ******** gone

i'm sorry to anyone who has the misery of putting up with me

to my best friend, to the love of my ******** life; i'm sorry, to both of you

i'm sorry i am who i am