*is not seeking attention from this entry!!!*
(It's really funny! I was gonna put the date...
it's my journal after all...but...Gaia labels it for me soo...moving on...)
If you don't know me, yet, I am a Samoan and Guamanian, stoner, mother, of 4.
(I mean if you wanna know more, just ask, it's a mouthful to explain my family!
But worth my time, if you are interested 3nodding )
Also, duh, family life is personal, so I'll only divulge sparingly ninja
But I digress...< < < you'll find me saying that often, since I go on tangents...
This entry is to vent my...how you say...
simmering, boiling rage?
(you know, simmering boiling? like it's been simmering on low...
but for hours...maybe left...forgotten...
and is now quite dangerously hot...?
Yea...THAT...)
Well vent I must!
The alternative...is me being emo. My former, high school, loner, minority, shy, emo self. The one that cut...not to die...no not me, that wasn't my thought, at first...
Well, I have been with my husband since Fall 2013. I was 22 going on 23.
We wed (ugh...just in court, it was swift, and like everything else, just felt forced...I was 6 mo. preg. with my 2nd baby, and his 1st...)
OOOfff COURSE it was hot and heavy in the beginning.
BTW to you people, yes YOU people, ALL YA'LL PEOPLE.
A relationship can not, I repeat, CAN NOT survive on sex alone!
Why you say?
Because the rest of your waking hours, you are NOT having sex. You have life.
Work. Maybe kids? You have to sleep sometime...etc
ergo, you MUST be connected on...multiple levels
At least, you want a less stressful, lasting relationship.
Otherwise, you MUST be pliable! If you care about someone, maybe you could tweak some things about yourself...but check yo'self before you wreck yo'self...
Do not change, only for someone else. Make sure you are benefiting too.
(for example, if in a relationship, someone encouraged and supported quitting cigarettes or any nicotine hitting device, etc) because it's your life. You NEED room to be you...or you WILL feel like me...
trapped cry
*I passed out 3 hours previous to "submitting" this entry.
Plus my upset ran out...so til next time... 3nodding *
