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What I want is something that most men are not willing to give.

And that is to actually care about me for something more than sex.

I never thought I'd see the day when a guy would want me only for sex and nothing else. That makes one feel like a whore, but a free one at that. I am not going to have sex with someone just for having sex, they have to care about me a little bit first. And I learned that the person I am eyeing is an immature little brat that barks more than he bites. I told him I was willing, and he barked the entire time. I wonder how he'll be barking when I come by later today. I don't think I like him anymore. He lacks finesse, maturity and the seriousness about sex that is needed for me to actually be willing to consider giving him anything. Its a joke to him, and I can probably assume that he is still a virgin with the way he is acting.

Or maybe I proved the saying wrong. If you ask a man to have sex with you, they'd jump on it without a second thought. I guess I am the one person no one would jump on if I say so. I can't help but say that it stings, but I'm not hurt that badly. In fact I'm a bit relieved. I didn't have to go and have sex with that moron, and I doubt I will anytime soon. His maturity is buried deep inside, so deep that not even an earthquake can dislodge it.

I guess I am doomed to be unlucky with men. Hell, even the guy Andrea wanted me to meet didn't fit my bill. I can't date someone over 8 years older than me. I can be friends, but I can't date. The oldest I'm willing to go is 25. A five year gap is a bit better than an 8 year one. Maybe thats what is wrong with me, I'm too picky. I have to feel something before I go on. Meh, they say I will find someone good, ******** hell that someone good better make himself known to me sometime soon.

Or I just need single friends. When my friends were single, my mind wasn't so focused on this bullshit. They're all happy with their boyfriends while I am here striking out even when I say I am willing to have a one night stand with someone. Feh, I am that undesireable. *shrug* Jeff just told me that the guy was a total idiot when it came to me telling him I was willing. Maybe I scared him, who knows. Still, I'm undesireable as ever.