I'm afraid.
I don't know what to do and I feel like I'm floundering.
I feel like an idiot. I just want someone to to take a hold of me and tell me it's okay.
I know (ah hell, there's too many I's, but this is a journal) that I'm over reacting but I can't help it.
I still have one more year to decide what I'm going to do for the rest of my life. I want to do things with the arts- but that's no job to support myself. I like chemistry, so why not pharmacy? I'll work behind a counter in a department store for the rest of my life with not as much human contact unless I work in a hospital.
I hope I'll figure this all out.
Just.. Right now, I really want someone to hold onto. I've got so many things I want to tell people, I feel like I'm going to burst. But I can't tell them.
Well, I can but.. I don't want to trouble them.
But I can't take it. So, in advance, I'm sorry. For my lapse in judgement, I still don't want to lose what what I have. Please forgive me for being an idiot.
Substitution never works, kids.
(By the way, Happy birthday to myself. 6/20)
[[ Ran ]] Community Member 
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