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This all might be a bit confusing for people who know me in real life. Or maybe it might clarify...I dont know.

But I have came to the Idea that...
The avie version of me is a condensed/concentrated version of how I am.
And the me in real life is diluded.

Its complicated. sweatdrop
I guess I have always seen myself a certain way. The way I saw myself, the way I wanted others to see me. Thats how I had always been.
It wasnt always a clear vision.
(Didnt/Doesnt every teenager have an identity crisis from time to time? Only its a bit more frequent/more with me. Because well...I'm not going to get into it now.)

Anyway, My avie is that clear picture. Without all that distorition from the 'real' world.

My experiences in the outside world have been changing me.
That comes with getting into a serious relationship.
Also the stress that comes from college life.

I guess I am just going through 'the finding myself at college' phase.
I let you know how that develops.

Sara Out.

P.S. I accedently hit a series of keys when typing the subject of this post and it submented it. It asked if I wanted to go back to what I was doing and it sent me to an error message. Really weird, very annoying. stressed I lost my whole post. gonk So I had to rewrite it from memory. crying My memory is not that good. I think this is as close to the first as possible but somehow it just doesnt feel like my original words.