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I Dyed My Hair black about 2 months ago and i need to dye it again my roots are going back to evil blonde evil *shudders* it look really weird, kinda like i have this big bald stip down the center on my head *makes a disgusted face* NOT GOOD!!!!! For 2 Years i've had this humongous thing for my friend Zane (it might be Love????) He's like that most amazing person i've ever known. He has really dark brown hair, is short, gorgeous hazel eyes, and has wrestled since first grade and went to State every year so he's got a 6 pack. You wanna know something? I could careless if he had all these things or not. He's hilarious, smart, cool to be around, and if your doing good at something he'll tell you. He's really competative, and the only thing i'd change about him if i could are his anger management problems. If he strikes out in baseball he'll throw the bat down and sulk back to the dugout if he misses freethrows he'll get mad, If he drops a catch in football he'll get pissed. You get the idea. We became friends in Spetember of 2004 in 5th grade while we were in this after school program everyday. mostly because I play trumpet and he plays flute and i'd help him and practice with him. Something that happened that made me really really happy was that I became best friends with him Stpe sister Hallie, (she was so ******** awesome) and i got to sleepover at his and her house all the time. last year Hallie moved back with her mom so no more times at Zane's house for me. this year we became better friends but hung out a lot less which totally bummed me out.

In February I got a crush on my friend Greg who happened to be Zane's best friend. I asked Greg out and he was a total jerk about it but i didn't care i wanted to be as good of friends with him as i could and more later (not anymore) So i became bestfriends with Greg and we went places together (kinda like dates but not really because my mom was there) And i had a feeling that Greg liked me during those times and after the first time i went anywhere with him that morning i felt so lonely without him i cut my ankle (my mom would see it on my wrists) then I called Zane and told him about what i did and why i felt so bad and felt really sucky. he understood because he's emo too. he's thought about running away a ton of times and says his life sucks. WELCOME TO EMO CITY!!!!! A PLACE OF PEOPLES SUCKY LIVES!!!!!!! Back to subject... One night i took Greg, Sarah, and josh to the movies with no parents. Before that night Sarah hated Greg becasue she asked him out earlier that year. That night greg and Sarah thought they both had a crush on eachother...... MY BEST FRIENDS ARE ******** DATING PEOPLE!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! HOW DO I FEEL??????? LIKE s**t BECAUSE SARAH KNEW I LIKED GREG AND HURT ME ANYWAYS!!!!!!!!!!!! that was the end of us being best friends. Greg had no clue about this and got a major ego boost from this and became a jerk so were just friends now not best friends anymore. That got me tyed in with Josh and now were best friends.

Well your probably Tired of hearing about how my life sucks so i'll just shut up.

ninja Rachel ninja