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11:05 AM - ******** day/LOSING IT
Category: Life

Okay this weekend I had planned on seeing William. Well its Saturday and Im like okay....waiting to leave here..Yeah Im cool like that I dun have my license yet cause my parents know that I will leave here for good. But anyways, my mum has to watch my sister's kids and well she was getting all pissy with me about her not taking me over to William til nearly noon. Im fine with that until I find out I need a ride back.. Now Im a bit urgent to leave and get as much time as I can with him. Looks like Im not going to be able to cause of the little kids oh not to mention the ******** sperm donor that claims to be my dad. He's being an a*****e to my mum because she watching the kids.

Im am moments from a ******** mental and nervoud break down because of all the noise, all the slamming, pounding, screaming, yelling, being stressed, iritated, annoyed, and tired, from having to watch every damn movement of my nephew because the little brat gets into everything, makes huge messes, makes mikayla and Brook cry, and a bunch of other little kids jink

Yeah if you cant tell I hate little kids.. I really do. I dont ever want to have any of them. Kiss my a** of you have problem with it.

Anyways...Im shaking a bit right now beause of how damed pissed I am and just how much of a mess everything is.
My mum is leaving my dad because jesus christ, over last weekend everything was good. My mum could eat again. her stomach didnt bother her as badly, and everything was just not so stressful and to the point of were if you make a bad move you wouldnt get your a** chewed off or if something was out of place you wouldnt have some asswipe drill sergent come out of ******** no were and make you feel like s**t.
my dd is an a*****e.
Pure and simple
and I cant wait to get the ******** out of here....
Im so tired of all of this

Im losing my ******** mind.