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Ok to start off with, I am bisexual. I am not trying to be cool, to be in the in crowd. Where I live you are constantly made fun of. I am in love with my bestfriend. Her name is Rachael. She is the best thing that happened to me. I will tell you about her in a different entry. Another one of my bestfriends I would die for is Summer. She is amazing, she always makes me laugh. I am fat. Any pictures I have ever put on here are not me. I am ashamed of myself. I have no selfesteem. The only person in the world that understands me is Rachael. I have tried many ways to help the pain. I even tried to see if cutting would help. And it didn't. Right now all I want in the world is my true love to hold me in their arms and say I love you. I would kill for someone I loved to tell me that besides family and close friends. I want someone to say I am pretty and mean it. I want someone to make my life worth liveing. I know that is Rachael, but sometimes it isn't enough. I want people to accept me for who I am. I want more than one person to make my life worth liveing. I know that will never come true. Some things you can only dream about. I guess that is like wishing to become skinny and pretty overnight. Which also won't happen. Please don't say anything if you only want to hurt me. I have enough of that in my life. I don't need it on here. The only place where if they say something it won't hurt my feelings as bad as someone I know.