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What happens when the thing you want so horribly bad from one person never happens? When you want them to say the words your heart is yearning for?

Where do you go? What do you do?

I wish I knew... This person, whom I care very, very deeply for, has changed. May have forgotten what we once enjoyed. Why we became friends...

This individual is no longer close with me. I fear that he is not open, like before. Like I have lost that person's trust. But why? No longer does this person return my e-mails, and my calls, but claims that he feels deeply for me. Why should I believe him now? Making me go crazy.

I trusted him with everything. I felt like I would be able to spill my heart, my thoughts, and my soul to this person. Yet, now I shy away. I do not know what I feel anymore.

Fear? Guilt? Anger? That maybe I am not the only one he/she confides in. Am I jealous because of this? Why should I be? I shouldn't care! I hate him for everything! Maybe he's gotten tired of me. Maybe he doesn't care anymore. Maybe...

At one point, I thought I knew. Or at least I think so, but now, I'm just a blur. I don't know my left from my right. My right from my wrong...

I often wonder why I feel so strongly about one being. I guess I shall never know...