I hate feeling lonely, but when you have so much on your mind the lonliness barely matters. Its times like these when you have nothing to focus on that the pain rises and falls. I'm very close to getting something close to what I desire, but I risk getting hurt. Hell, I'm going to be hurt in the future, why not start not.
Here's the thing, I'm trying...though I could just be upfront with how I feel, I'm just afraid of the outcome. I'm also trying to control the urge to not say anything to anyone about this. I'm kinda failing here, but in a way no one knows exactly what I am talking about -so its all good.
I'm just tired of this hollow feeling, and the person I am looking at right now is probably not the right kind of person to fill that void. He looks at me as something else than what I'd like him to.
Eh...first time for everything, just get it over with.
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Its the wait that is killing me.
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