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Okay it's not like anyone reads this so I'm going to vent:

I'm in a bad mood be warned:



Why is it as soon as things start going good, everything starts to crumble?
Why is it that as soon as I think I find someone I end up pushing them away?
Why is it when I have friends and I start to get close to them, they push me away?
Why do I trust those who may not exist?
Why am I so strong yet so weak all at once?
Why is it that they all take it upon themselves to label me wrong before I open my mouth?
Am I too dramatic?
Am I too overbearing?
Am I too annoying?
Do I read too much into things?
What the hell is wrong with me?

Why is it everytime I think I've made progress I regress back to where I was in ninth grade?
Why do I cause others such pain?
Why do they cause me such pain?
Why do I give a damn what happens anymore?
Why is my only friend found in the music I hold dear?
Why do I love, who may not be real?
Why do I revert back to the distant me, no one knows except for me?
Why do I feel, I see myself drowning but why can't I swim, call out, make a sound?
Will you save me?
Is this a game?
Is it a game with my head?
Am I really crazy?
Where have they all gone?
What did I do?
Who do I have to turn to?

I'll tell you the answer:
I did everything wrong and I have no one
I will let myself drown, you will just stand and watch
I'm sorry I failed you all, I'm sorry I failed myself, I'm sorry, it's not like it matters anyways.

What does sorry mean?
Nothing?
Everything?
Can it fix anything?
Yes?
No?
Who knows

Is God real?
Is he fictional?
Does he spit on all of us?
Does he spit on me?
Does he love?
Is he, a he?

Who knows

Is it going to continue?
Will things get better?
I love you, do you love me?
Are you full of bull?
Am I truthful with myself?

Who knows

The question is why?
The answers are unknown