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CUT

you dont know that i do it

so you keep saying your jokes

you put the siccors to your wrist

and pretend to cut

i pretend to laugh

and so do you

i stoped but you made made me want to do it again

CUT.....now here i am

sitting on my bed writting this

listening to HIM

desiding.....

weather to do it

or not to

covered scars

you never knew

but i did.... i never thought id tell you

but here we are now you and me

CUT....dont tempt me

you know i want to

you've got my razor but ive got the sissors

you dont want to leave me alone

your scarred that i might do it again

CUT....you left.. im bleeding

half dead on my bed im still bleeding

when you come back you find me

cold as ice.



by: cameo schneider




candy


candy coated cuts on my wrist

slits like they were strangled with barbed wire

showing the true me

down to the bone, to my core

i get the rush when i feel the pain

sure most people fear it

but i dont it brings me JOY

blood, red, shining from my wrist

my pain does not last as long as i hope

so i keep doing it

at first they are few and small if any scars are left

but as i go on more and more apear

deeper and deeper they go

they never END

there are so many that i keep to myself

never showing any skin other than my face

you dont get what im doing

no one does you all think im just SHY

but im not

people are catching on to me

when they see me i say leave me alone

covered skin and blood on my sweater

moms on to me she knows what i do

''we need to get you help'' she says

but thats all no how?? why?? or what made you do it??

just you saying you need help

i know i should'nt do it

what even got me started??

ive been doing it so long that its killing me now

im lieing on floor just inside my room

carpet soaking up my BLOOD

feeling dizzy about to faint

my blood has stoped flowing on to the floor

im soaked and dieing and you might have been able to help me

but i felt to sorry for myself

so im lieing dead on my bedroom FLOOR.

By: Cameo Schneider