Well, the dream starts out with me and Matt talking on the phone. He suddenly says that he has to go and that he loves me and everything..Well. Then in my dream was showing everything he was doing..He went to a restruant with his friends and there was some girl with them..They ended up having sex in the bathroom...I called him in the middle of all this and he told me to hold on. About ive minutes later some girl picks up the phone, sounding pissed off. "MAtt doesn't want to be with you anymore! He has me so don't ever call here again, go that?!" After tthat, days passed. I tried suicide, I tried to find someone else..But couldn't. For some reason, God wouldn't let me die...I had tried sliting my wrists, my neck, over dosing, and jumping off the Memphis brige, but nothing killed me. Eventually I went to the hospital for an over does and when I woke from a comma, Matt was there sitting next to me. Here's what we said to each other:
Me: "What are you doing here...?"
Matt: "Ashley...What have you become...?"
Me: "I'm myself..."
Matt: "What's with all the suicide attempts...?"
Me: "I want to die.."
Matt: "How come you havn't?"
Me: "I don't ******** know Matt...I've tried jumping off briges, over dosing, and tried to use a knife to kill myself with, but nothing works..."
Matt: "Maybe that's because God doesn't want you to die yet..."
Me:I don't see why..There's nothing on this stupid Earth to live for..."
Matt: "So, I'm not anything to live for..?"
Me: "Matt..Don't say that..I can't live for you because you are not mine anymore.."
Matt: "I want to be.."
Me: "Matt..Please don't say that..."
Matt: "Ashley..I love you..I don't know what I was thinking that night...I just..I don't know..but after being with her for a few weeks..I realized that she was nothign compared to you..."
Me: "Matt...I can't...You broke my heart, and your expecting me to take you back in a heart beat..? I need time to think about it..."
Matt: "Ashley, please..I moved down to Arkansas just to be with you..."
Me: "No tricks....?"
Matt: "No...You can watch me..I want be unfaithful, Ashley..Please.."
Me: "I'll try..I don't know if our relationship will be the same though.."
Matt: "Thankyou..."
Then we we quiet for a while, sitting on the bed, watching tv. He then started the crack his stupid, funny jokes..I'd missed that...His King voice..Everything. We were soon laughing like we did in the old times, talking about random stuff and actually cuddling...
We never would have suspected that I would end up having a seisuire that night..
In any case, in my dream, I ended up dieing, and coming to Matt in his dream. He didn't know I was dead yet...
Me: Matt...
Matt: "Ashley, hey!"
Me: "Matt..I love you so much...I just want you to know..Please, don't ever forget me...?"
Matt: "What are you talking about? How could I forget you. We're going to move in with each other! Start everything over!"
Me: "Do me a favore.."
Matt: "Anything."
Me: "I want you to move on, get a girlfriend..Have children..Get married..Have a life.."
Matt: "I will with you..."
Me: "Goodbye..."
And with that, I faded out of his dream, and went to heaven...From there I watched Matt go to the hospital, not execting me to be gone...Not to long after that, he killed himself...He never went to heaven to be with me..He went to hell..We could never see each other again..
Then I woke up....
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