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******** it. I can cry all I want and she'll never care.I sat right next to her and she didn't see.She turned to her left and talked to someone else as I was cryng so hard that I had to leave the room because I had a spaz fit.And you know what she did?Do you know what that person who says she's my friend did? Do you wanna know that she turned to me and told me not to cry.That she cared?That she didn't mean to ignore me for the last THREE MONTHS? no.Nothing at all.You know what she did.SHE turned and started to laugh with a friend.SHE LAUGHED!!
I sat down right next to her!!
"_______,I really need to....."
and all I got was silence and the cold shoulder.I've had enough of this silence.It annoys me.I cannot make her mad.I cannot make her cry.I cannot make her feel anything!! When I try to talk to her the subject is always about something I have no clue about.It just drives me batty,and I try.
So today.....finally.....I cryed.....And she laughed.....paying no attention to me as I started to sob and hyperventalate and had to go to the nurse the next hour because I couldn't stop.I almost passed out from crying so much.All because of her and this horrible day.
That was my day.
That's been the last three months.
Nothing.
How can you not notice someone who cannot breathe behind you because thier crying so hard?
Just someone tell me that?