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I'm sick and tired of having to deal with this. I do not want to talk to you John. You keep saying that it will do good. I don't want to be called a hypocrit, because I'm not. And I highly doubt you wish to be called a ******** a*****e (wait, I just called you one, oops.) You make me feel like I can't do a damn thing without hurting everyone. Maybe its just you I am hurting, and to be honest, I don't really give a damn anymore. I'm fed up with a lot of things, and you're not helping the situation.
Raymond and I wanted to spend time with you, and the others since it seemed that everytime I wanted to hang out with you, and someone else, everyone else would disperse. I didn't want you to feel left out, alright. So don't give me any more crap. I try to call everyone and see if they want to do something so THEY DON'T FEEL LEFT OUT. But how many people would do the same for me, or even Raymond? No one would. And its a fact.
I have a right to be angry right now. I'm tired of being made the fool. I'm a lot smarter than you think. Just because I don't take "higher" classes doesn't mean s**t. I'm tired of it.
And just because I want to drink doesn't mean you can lecture me about the effects of alcohol. I know about that already. You should talk to Tiffany more, she does more than I do. She's CAPABLE of more things than I am. She the more adventurous person I want to be, but can't. Since most of my friends don't want to go out and do something different for a change.
And as for Raymond bringing up Gabby. She wasn't used in any negative way, just a comparison. Whenever one of us even speaks her name, you suddenly become defensive. But when Raymond tries to defend me, you get pissed. Its the same bloody thing. So don't be hypocritical.
I don't want to talk to you in person. I don't want to talk to you. I don't want to see you. Why? I don't want to say something that will make matters worse. Because what I want to say CAN and WILL make matters worse. Like people say, you're the designated male. So if I ******** things up. I won't be around my friends anymore. Since I wouldn't want to be around you.
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