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well today is friday and i haven't talk to my bf for a long time i feel lonly i was thinking of starting a story here but i don't know what to write about?? i was thinking of makeing a story about a lost girl who doesn't know anything or why she here but i have no idea how to start it so i think i'm going to write stuff that doesn't matter to anybody really so lets start were should i start i have no idea right now i'm just thinking of this song i'm lissoning to right now it the theme song of kingdom hearts 2 i keep staring it over and over again i have no idea why but i like it so much i never know why i write or why i sing or act the way i do it just how i am i sometime i wish maybe i would stop i have different personalitly for everything i do and for all the poeple i see or talk too i really don't know the real me witch one is it i have on idea is it the one when i'm so darn shy or is it the one when i talk so much that i don't know what i'm talking about or is it the one when i act all bad and i don't care i can't tall anymore i lost everything for some resson i don't even one why i'm writeing this to you people i feel so werid for some resson as you can see for my bad spelling i can't spell go not at all i just restarted the song again it just gets to me for some darn resson grrrrrrr i can't get it welll i think i know were to start in my story i could be in a allyway and it's all dark and black and there is one light on and there smoke everywere and then i see something falling for the sky and run out the allyway and see everybody just standing there looking up and in the building i see poeple laughing and drinking and then thay stop and look out the window i think thay hear something that i can't hear cause they start to cover ther ear's and scearm i see the light again and i sart to run towards it and i keep runing then i end up in a grass feld and the city is gone and and then i turn around and there his thing glowing in light and it smiles and runs i follow it to a place cover in trees and then i see the night sky again and the trees all sing a wierd song and i have no idea what there saying then the thing come back and it come out of the glow it was come guy and he came up to me and kissed me on my lips and said something in my ear and the ground was gone and i was falling in it he let me go and i fell and i keep falling and all i could see was nothing i could see my hands my body i could see anything it was like for ever darkness and then i fall on the ground it was hard and cold and then i say red light shining at the back of me and then i saw people sreaming and building falling fire fire everwhere and no one could run there were all frozen i ran and tryed to help but i couldn't i was frozen too then i felt a sharp pain in my chest and back i turned around and something was trying to get out of my back and my hands turned black and i couldn't breath and then wing poped out of my back and then the poeple started to run i fall and rooled down to a lake and when i got up i look at my body i had eyes like the fire i saw and black and green wings there out my back my hair was longer and i started to cry i felt like crying and then i hear a voice the people the people were looking at me and when i tryed to say same thing they started to trow thing at me i used my wings to protect me back same one got me with a soda can and i fall back in a lake and then i felt something grabing me and pulling me down i could move but a little girl the little girl was me and she tryed to help me and she was crying and scream for help i stop moving and let it take me down onces again i was in the darkness of nothing less i felt my heart losing a pace to it everytime i fell i felt hate and pain all at once in tell i screamed and then i open my eyes i was back at the trees and the guy was there he was laughing at me and then i ran to him and started to cry he held my tight and kissed my forhead and i looked up at him he said he loved me back he has to go and we can't be together i cryed and told him no he disappear and i was lefted here on the ground the trees stoped singing and then i got up and took flight i saw the light again and the people just standing there and then i saw me in the allway looking as while this time i flow the other way i keep flying up i didn't look back i didn't want to turn around and go thjough that again so i keep going to i was flying in darkness i could no longer see the city or the trees i keep going ....... then i saw him he smiled and but this time i want with him so he could disappear on me i opened my eyes and i didn't have wings and anymore and i looked around and saw a most beautiful place i could ever see and he was there i hug him and we kissed .
i have no idea what to do now i told you a story that i had in my dreams and in day time and it werid isn't it i can't stayed it what the hell do theses dreams mean anyway they drive me crazy i bine talking and talking and talking and i don't know why i'm talking this is so werid for some resson and i can't help but to think that i have no idea why i have to think and have to dream and have to do stuff i don't want to kill myself cause i think that is so stuiped and i hate the though of poeple dieing for something that is not right you can't have a bad day forever no one can you could have a okay day or a bad day but it can't be so bad to kill your self i want to know why these poeple would want to whats going on why think this way why feel this way you don't need it you don't want it and it sucks to hear poeple cry about this stuff that should be happening to them to no one but it happens why can't men stop think about sex all the time and think the need to rape some one it stupied i don' know why people have to be so grrrrrrrr all these question that would ever be found and never be answered yes i know there has to be pain thats how yoiu learn for it but still pain is all you get really you don't really know it your happy or if your great or if your okay but pain angery sad mad you know think so fast and pain you can feel happness you can't feel happness will could and go but pain all way stays you feel it every day and i have no idea why you do it a question that i need to be answed so i could know all these thought in my mind and i can't put my finger on it and i have no idea why i can't . so this is my little talk i don't feel like i should keep writing but if i want to add somthing to it i would
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