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Sooo, have I ever stated how much I hate being idle? Being idle means there are plenty of moments for me to think. Thinking albeit it is a good thing, can really drive a stake through my brain. Apparently I am one of a dying breed. A naive breed as the populace may say. One who upholds morals and believes in something more than lustful laisons. Or perhaps I am afraid of being like everyone else and losing my inhibitions to some sex-crazed lunatic. Apparently I have the goods, and know how to use them - but what is the use when there is no one of worth? If I use these "womanly charms" this person of worth could easily cast me aside for something else. But how could that be so when I am not like everybody else? Y'see what thinking does to me. I'm still a lonely bereft individual, despite how many offers I have had for a "good time." I am not willing to be boozed up and carted off to some seedy hotel room to be taken advantage of, even if I wish for the company of a male. Definately not in that manner. Surely such gentlemen of good taste exist somewhere. Or perhaps I should just sink to the levels that many leather clad women do, and succeed with such ease? Murr, I couldn't do it even if I tried, and I have several times. Its awkward and degrading. Be true to yourself and you will find your way. Something I've been told countless times, but never fully understand. Am I destined to be without a caring individual? I've been lacking something as stable for a while now. I've had times when I had someone there, but they wanted only physical love none of that "romantic bullshit" as they have told me. So I simply left them. Those people are not worth my time, but to be honest will there ever be someone worth my time? Someone that can see my worth as a human rather than my a**? Possibly, but not in this small section of California. A place where long legs and large breasts rule supreme. The superficial bullshit is scripture, and sex is only a handshake rather than something two people do to show they love one another (oh, you cannot forget that babymakin'). Ok. I think I babbled on long enough. Mmm. Please excuse the improper grammar and spelling. I'm too lazy to find my glasses or even pay attention to what I have just written. Bon Nuit.

Posted by: ShaIIow Sat Dec 30, 2006 @ 06:42am

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Commented on: Sat Dec 30, 2006 @ 01:57pm


	Just stop believing in love. I don't think it's real. People think they feel it, but "Three Days Grace" knows best. "We had fire in our eyes........in the BEGINNIG!" Haha, love is never real or maybe it would last. But it always has to be wanted by both people.

Commented on: Sun Dec 31, 2006 @ 02:19am


	@Decreptore - Shut up, ******. You speak of things you do not know, and your assumptions that you hold Knowledge are false. Aye, Hakumei, you're right. Majority of the people in these times cannot see life beyond their own fluid pleasure, and the idea of motivations toward another based on respect are appalling and, unfortunately, seen as weak by most. But stay the course, you're worth teh wait, and I hope that you'll eventually find a Man worthy of you. Stay strong, Don't falter and end up in some bullshit relationship with an a***e who wouldn't know teh concept of respecting a Woman that would give her heart to him.

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Commented on: Sun Dec 31, 2006 @ 10:50pm


	There are still gentlemen out there. Get hooked into a different crowd. I know several fine young gentlemen and I know there is someone for you.

Commented on: Wed Jan 03, 2007 @ 05:51am


	Who the hell are you Se Ga Takai!? Please, call me more names, I love it. hint of sarcasm I could really care less!

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