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Last night was new years eve, and it was honestly kind of depressing. I was home, because the party I was supposed to be at was cancelled at the last minute. No biggy I guess, I spent the time with my family and sister instead. But the depressing part was that 2006 IS OVER!!! I mean, so many great things happened in 2006, too many to count or name! And now its over, *snap*, just like that... kinda sad, ya know what I mean?

I am sure 2007 will be great and all, but 2006 is gone. It is now one year closer to graduation, and growing older, and growing appart from my friends on our journeys off to colleges... these thoughts make my stomach go all topsy turvy just thinking about them. I guess my biggest problem is that I fear change. I fear the unknown, and a new year brings 365 days of unknown. I fear for leaving the past behind, because the past is just so much more comfortable to live in than the present...

I sat on the couch till 2:00 in the morning last night, just thinking. Thinking about my life. Reflecting on the past. And going over and over 2006 in my head, the good times, but also the bad. Yes, I am still sad about the changing year, but time is not going to slow down, not for you, not for me, not for anyone in the world. I just need to learn to take one day at a time, and live that day in the best, biggest, and brightest possible way I can. I know it all sounds a little too cliche, but it is true and true to no end, and i mean this with my whole heart.