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Well, today is my last day off. stare crying It's back to the ol' grind. Back to the same old ridiculous, never ending crap. More of the things that make me so unhappy and provoke these tears. Is there any chance 2007 will be better than the last? I doubt it. How can it be? It seems since a few years back every year has got worse for me. Especially 06. It takes the cake. So it really scares me...if each year follows the pattern of getting worse, and 06 felt really bad, what is 07 going to be like? question I don't know how much more I can take. I seems to even cause troubles for others. If it weren't for me, some people might have an easier life and be rid the the troubles they currently face. Would it be easier to end it all? As much as I think it might solve, I can never (at this point) truly think seriously about it because I am scared of the unknown and that it might ruin my last chance of happiness. As bittersweet as this last day of happiness is, the prospect of tomorrow coming keeps me from enjoying it. I keep thinking of it and it drives me deeper into the depths of my depression. But how can I escape? There is no exit road. If I leave things might turn out worse. And this fact alone, that I have to stay in the place that makes me so unhappy or things might be worse off, is enough to keep me crying forever.
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