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Its been one of tyhose days where people suck, I dont feel up to snuff, and I want to do nothing more but run off to someplace
where I know I can get away from all this DRAMA/ANNOYANCES in my life.
Im trying to play nice with William...trying to at least have some sort of acquaintance with him since he went and pulled some s**t with me that..well.... DIDNT FLY!!!! evil Sooo thats getting on my fraid nerves.
I think Im just going to let go trying to be friend with him. YEAH he made the point..we dont trust each other anymore..but HELLO...current he IS the only "friend" I have right now to really hang out with.
TOTAL BUMMER.
I dun know Its sad..but true..
sad Bad choice!
Along the same lines, during lunch..I was TOTALLY alone.
I like my personal and private space and time...but that was just weird for me.. Normally during lunch Im with someone..Either William or Rachael..
Neither of them Im friends with anymore or BARELY friends with.
I then realized something. When i started dating William...
I lost alot of people around me that were friends with me or friendly acquaintances. The people I normally get together with have first lunch or I just dont "know" anymore..Its not something i enjoy here -.-
I hate being alone...it reminds me to much of when I was a little kid and I used to get picked on...REALLY bad.
I had NO friends for a long time till I started to toughen up a pit and
became better friends with Nickol.
I hate not having friends that I can hang out with and/or talk with.
I missed a week of school which..omfg..is HARD on my grades becuase Im taking some serious classes right now and if I miss ANYTHING its like.. INSTANT TERRMOIL!! T__T
Soo now I am on the homework hunt of doom...trying to make up stuff...
I hate it all!! Plus..its all sooooooooooooooooo boring.
Im sooo sick and tired of the high school drama...and all the other little packages that come along with it...I personally cannot wait until I an graduated and out of this place..
I want to be in some other state living there and have gotten away from all these people from around here that...are so...awful. Its CRAZY here..And all I wnat to do is..BE HAPPY.. For me to be truely happy I have to get away from all thesxe people here and they way they act, get away from this town...
and in to Ft. Collins. CO with the one guy that makes me BEYOND happy...or not with him, and into the college I wish to attend RIGHT THERE. stressed
I grew up a little fast and I am a some what serious person.
Dealing with these twits here is like...dealing with a bunch of whiny three year olds that ALWAYS get there way and your trying to disapline them just a SMALL bit...T___T!!!!
burning_eyes = Charli's brain.
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And I must say I am in the same lonely state since my blood line has been attacked by ill health, and my selected line, (friends and pets), have been attacked by this same plague of unfortuneance too...(read my journal for the tale...)