I just don't know....
I can't think,
i've lost the ability to care for anything now...
All emotion has just died inside of me.
I'm not sad,
but, i'm not happy.
It seems my life is one giant permenent spiral downwords.
Oh well.
Oh look, i'm happy see;
lol, rofl
HAHA, nice!
.........
no.
.........
See how easy it is to fake being happy?
I've mastered faking being happy,
by the end of tomorrow, i'll be the "happiest" person ever.
But in reality, Happy is no longer a true emotion for me.
To laugh at sumtihng does not mean that your happy,
it simply means that you've found a humour.
But to be happy, that's to be purely positive, to be glad at what's going on,
to NOT be sad.
And although i no longer feel sad,
I think that that is the closest word to describe how i feel.
No, that's to simple, Depressed would be it,
But depressed is a condition, it's physical as well as emotional.
I wonder where a word thingy is in my house
(that thing that's not a dictionary >.> wink
I know what it IS, but i have no idea how to spell it <_<
So, since i was only writing this because i havn't wrote in a while, i'll now end it.
And on a side note;
I tried so hard,
And got so far,
But in the end,
It doesn't even matter.
^that is how i feel^
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and now that i'm going through that again, you aren't being a big help.
look, if you ever read this, i hope you figure out that i want you to be happier because seeing you sad doesn't make it any easier on me. just try your best to be a little happier, truly happier, every day, and i know you can do it. try to think of how much better it will be for me. try to think about how this will give you an opportunity to make new and better friends.
i am not the end of your world.
i'm just the beginning of a new chapter.