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How i wish the crickets and the buzz of this computer were better company.

i cant sleep and im wondering how my girl is. how her hair smells. how she's curled up in on her bed. what she's dreaming about. i cant sleep and i wish i was cause then i could be with her. the lady at the airport didnt know any better but it was one of the worst feelings leaving her. my legs kept moving forward but my but my heart was trying to tear itself from my body and stay with her. if only i could. i miss her so much. i cant sleep and i wonder how long till i can get back in my house. not so that i can be comfortable again. not so the stress can be removed from my parent's minds. but so that she might have a place to stay when she comes. a nice place. i mean, all those other things too but i cant get her outta my mind. she's in everything i do. when i see couples smiling at each other i want to tell them its not fair, to stop all that in front of me, that hurts. but sometimes the boyfriends are larger than me. and at work, thats not the best thing to do to keep a job. so, i continue to work my fingers dead until i can see her again.

I cant sleep, but im getting tired. And its such comfort knowing that she's over there waiting for me. And that she is mine. And i am hers.