Mr. Jenkins passed on last night.
I don't know what to say or do. It just seems so weird. Everyone thought he was going to come back.. but now.....
I have so many mixed feelings. There are times when I just want to be left alone, and other times when I really need a hug. Times when I feel like bawling my eyes out and other times where I think crying is just plain stupid.
It's snowing right now... huge snowflakes... heh, it reminds me of Mr. Jenkin's prediction for the first snow day of the school year, Dec. 7... he was wrong of course. I forget when the first snowday was but we were supposed to have a small snow fall on that day.
Suze ran down here after school. Claimed that she went running and just so happened upon my house. So, we talked for a while. I really wasn't in my sane mind. I'm just so exhausted... physically, emotionaly... So we lounged around and laughed quite a bit.
I don't think I can cry anymore. My eyes burn and my nose hurts and I just don't want to. Thank God, I think I am finally all cried out.
Pleh... all day long, nothing really mattered to me. I don't think I payed much attention in class, just enough to know that I have to present my speech tomorrow for comp, my stats test is tomorrow, my chem quiz is postponed, English quiz was canceled, and my Japanese quiz is sometime in the near future.
I don't know when. I was going to use that as a conversation starter with a certain someone but you know, I really wasn't in the mood. And when I figured that I'd probably never have the chance again and actually had gotten close to im-ing him, the door bell rang and suze popped in. So I half-happily, half-upsettedly, put up an away message and wandered about to talk to her.
Man, you know... these things just don't seem to matter at all...
... it's times like this where I wish gaia had a roadkill emoticon... because that is what I feel like.
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I'm sorry I wasn't really around today...I didn't really know if you wanted people around or wanted to be alone...so I kinda chilled with people in moderation.
And I was wondering where you went...I was almost offended because you put one up right when I got on.
But I figured it was all for good reason. *Darn Suze* j/k...