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Random Thoughts
This journal will only be written in when either 1. I am super depressed. 2. I am bored out of my mind or 3. When I am on the internet
Something floating through my head.....

I was sitting in class the other day as a disturbing/true fact hit my square in the face.

Now for this to make sense, I must explain a few things....

Now, my parents had a very rough patch last year and were getting rather abusive. My father was beating my mother for over a year until I got the courage to stand up to him and stop him one night. Now you could imagine all the anger I had in my heart, I still have all that anger and I cannot erase any of those images from my head. I still hate my father with the core of my being but something seem to hit me...

This was when we were going over in class about reasons we were looking into certain jobs. The field I want to go in is the same as my father but it is because I want to learn more about the machines and create more efficient lathes/CNC machines. I was sitting there thinking of the thing that inspired me as I realized it was my father....

Should I be at him for everything he's done to my family that still scars us...
Should I try to forgive him because he's trying to change...
Or should I hold all this rage in like I have been for over a year until I snap...

These are just thoughts from a depressed and lonely soul....






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Mystic-Vampire-Fox
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commentCommented on: Tue Jun 09, 2009 @ 08:13pm
I never thought I'd see this moment on such a...public place...


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