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November 5, 2006

Hey every1....ummm....I need to say something in public I'm kind of a poet...and i just made 2 new poems enjoy.....

"You"

By: Justin Gonzalez

When I sleep I feel as one with my body and mind, I always feel at ease...but for some reason I have been at disease.....(Thinking to myself I remember something that happened to me....)(What did you do to me?!!! Look what you did!!! I can't sleep!!!Why did you have to come along?!!! Why?!!! Why?!!! I hate you!!! Leave me alone!!!)....Your look....The way you laughed....Why did I get atracted to you? Of all people....You...Why?....I remember everything the way it happened....but now its all a memory...because...because you ruined me!!! I've been thinking non-stop about...what you made me become!!!...because of my hatred of you!!....I thought we had something...guess you didn't think so....I felt happiness for once in my life.....and I thought you did to...guess you faked it....I hate you....and i have a question....Was i a puppet to play with and torcher?...and i have something to say.....on my behalf...I can't sleep....Will you just leave my mind and thoughts?

I detecated this poem to someone I used to love and think about....and i think you know who you are....and i need to say something...I hate you...and go to hell.....

Alright now for my second poem....

Warmth within Hoplessness

By: Justin Gonzalez

I see a victim-He's smiling but deep within himself he hides it-Why he does it is a secret-The truth-He's knows theres no hope-Not one bit-He sees himself falling....Falling....Falling in hopelessness-Falling-The no return-Why?-Why?-Because no one cares- No one-But in his mind he sees a fire-Why?-Warmth-How did the fire start?-Who?-What?-Why?-Depression-That's why-Depression-Its a desire to be hapy-So he must fake happiness to kill depression-Which makes it worse-It hurts-I am that victim-I am-I am-So I must seek warmth in.....Hopelessness........

Hey so i bet i surprised all you guys huh? lol i'm kind of wierd....*okward laugh* so......leave a comment if you like my poems...and thanks to all my friends that supported me though the rough times.....you guys kick a**....and to all you ladies i'm single!!!

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December 8, 2006

Just made a new poem guys...hope you guys like it....

I Miss You

By: Justin Gonzalez

I see you all the time and i start to remember the times we had and i say to myself now......why haven't i noticed this now? the feeling of love.....I see you from a distance and I always say the same.....Why can't I seem to get you close you as much as before?.....I Miss you.....Please don't leave my memories.....I need you.....but then i see the pleasent face and all my worries fade away.....but i cannot reviel your name because my secrets are all thats keeping me sain....and if i tell it i will feel the pain because me knowing......that you won't feel the same.....I miss you....

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December 17,2006

Hey I just felt like making 2 new new poems enjoy.....

"Stay Here"

I look at you from the distance - the distance that I can't reach but then out of nowhere I see that you and i have come to be - I don't want anything to ever happen to you please stay here and don't leave - I swear to protect you that has never changed but please if anything ever happend to you....stay here don't go because I love you....

"Change"

I see my reflection and I can't help to wonder that- That i'm different i've changed.....i see myself and i smile knowing that i have changed and everyone notices it.....You may not know it you may deny it but i know that I have changed and thats all that matters....

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December 20, 2006

"Consumed by Darkness"

Darlene....I made this poem to express how i feel nothing more....I'm sorry i just had to write this poem to make me feel better....I hope you of all people understand...

I see the souls of the light with joy, love and compassion. My soul has been a child's play 4 love, because nobody know's me like the darkness. The dark knows my name and keeps me company, I gave you my heart, but I understand....I guess we are as different as light and dark, we can never be....so I am consumed by darkness because I am alone and i have noone to hold....so I grasp the darkness as it lets me into its void of no return i call her name, yet no body comes.....So I yell to thee the darkness destroy my heart and cast upon me the savage pain of darkness....never to return....

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December 27,2006

I Want To Tell You More......

What can I say to you?

That I had not said before

I can tell you a hundred words

But not all can be understood

As what they are.

I wish to tell you more

But I simply cannot.

I know you may understand.

For my eyes say things

I do not wish them to.

But tell me, what can I do?

When I fight and fight

For it not come through

My words may mean nothing to you

But to me they are more.

As seems some one else has come to

I simply don't understand.

How is it you do not see?

What I do.

Your heart shouts great things

But your mind denies the truth.

Grant your passage to my world

For it is made

With your great unknown.

Love is something you should not stop.

Thus it is beautiful

To see and better to hold.

Give me the chance to show you

That what you fear.

Thus I know the secret

Your heart reveals.

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January 7, 2006



Broken Thoughts

I think alone.....I feel alone.....I am alone.....i look at the night sky and make a wish.....i wish to stop being alone.....so i came to you for you yo save me from my lonelyness but i fear that you won't be there when i need you....
so i think broken thoughts because i am a broken toy made by a broken carpenter called life....twisted and torn i fear of lonelyness and the hell of pain.....cause i wait and wait in the dark hell waiting for someone to save me from this lonely hell......