Uugh...
I need to vent.
Ignore it or not, I dun really care.
-rubs temples-
Okay, main reason as to why I'm slightly stressed all boils down to Joslyn's party.
To begin with...
Why do people say such stupidly ignorant things to their own friends?
Why would someone... EVER tell a friend something that would hurt their feelings?
Or something that would probably bother them some way or another?
As you can imagine, I heard something I didn't exactly want to hear, and I don't know if it's true or not, but it's still bothering me.
Everytime I go over to Joslyn's house, I have to hear stuff about me being with Ryan.
Usually Ms. Tammy says nice things about it, but sometimes, not so much...
And at the party, Joslyn and her tag-teamed, and told me about this Laura Steinbache(sp?) girl that they say Ryan liked.
Yeah... I dunno if that's true or not, or if that even matters... But still, why the hell would they tell me that?
So I could think about it every hour of my life, wondering if I'm as good as said girl?
Because that's all I can think about lately. Even when I was with Ryan Sunday, I felt like crap and kept spacing out, wondering if I'm even good enough for him.
But enough about that crap.
Ms. Tammy did something else I wasn't exactly happy about.
Once Joslyn and... Those other two girls fell asleep, or were going to, I went upstairs and hung out in the livingroom with Ms. Tammy and Terra(Sp?).
They were talking about their own thing... So I just picked up the laptop, and started doing my own thing.
And... then I did something pretty retarded, I guess. I had been listening to their conversation, and at one point, I pitched in.
APPARENTLY doing so was just... HORRIBLE of me, cus Ms. Tammy was all, "You dunno wtf we're talking about! D:<<"
But... I was like, "Yeah... I... Do... You were talking about this, this, and this."
So after approving myself, I guess she 'allowed' me to continue conversing with them.
However, me still being on the laptop must have pissed her off, cus whenever I'd agree with her by saying, "Yeah." She'd get all pissy and say that I was ignoring her... But thing is, I wasn't. Ms. Tammy always has something to say, and I always listen.
I don't know why she thinks I'd disrespect her otherwise.
I felt bad for Terra, too. Cus eventually, whenever one of us would say something, she'd snap back and make it look like whatever we said was horrifying.
It was really weird, and it drove me nuts.
I could say something like... "The weather has been very nice."
And she could just be like, "Yeah, EXCEPT IT'S RAINING THE BLOOD OF OUR SOLDIERS IN IRAQ. WHAT NOW!?"
She didn't say that... but you have a visual now, correct?
It was basically horrible talking to her...
I really hope she was drunk or something... Because usually, I love talking to Ms. Tammy.
Joslyn's party has just bothered me...
I had fun, for the most part, but...
I just wish I knew what I'm doing wrong. x3;;
Anyways, there.
I vented.
I'm gunna... go ahead and continue beating myself up for the first reason; let it play around with my heart s'more.
I need to vent.
Ignore it or not, I dun really care.
-rubs temples-
Okay, main reason as to why I'm slightly stressed all boils down to Joslyn's party.
To begin with...
Why do people say such stupidly ignorant things to their own friends?
Why would someone... EVER tell a friend something that would hurt their feelings?
Or something that would probably bother them some way or another?
As you can imagine, I heard something I didn't exactly want to hear, and I don't know if it's true or not, but it's still bothering me.
Everytime I go over to Joslyn's house, I have to hear stuff about me being with Ryan.
Usually Ms. Tammy says nice things about it, but sometimes, not so much...
And at the party, Joslyn and her tag-teamed, and told me about this Laura Steinbache(sp?) girl that they say Ryan liked.
Yeah... I dunno if that's true or not, or if that even matters... But still, why the hell would they tell me that?
So I could think about it every hour of my life, wondering if I'm as good as said girl?
Because that's all I can think about lately. Even when I was with Ryan Sunday, I felt like crap and kept spacing out, wondering if I'm even good enough for him.
But enough about that crap.
Ms. Tammy did something else I wasn't exactly happy about.
Once Joslyn and... Those other two girls fell asleep, or were going to, I went upstairs and hung out in the livingroom with Ms. Tammy and Terra(Sp?).
They were talking about their own thing... So I just picked up the laptop, and started doing my own thing.
And... then I did something pretty retarded, I guess. I had been listening to their conversation, and at one point, I pitched in.
APPARENTLY doing so was just... HORRIBLE of me, cus Ms. Tammy was all, "You dunno wtf we're talking about! D:<<"
But... I was like, "Yeah... I... Do... You were talking about this, this, and this."
So after approving myself, I guess she 'allowed' me to continue conversing with them.
However, me still being on the laptop must have pissed her off, cus whenever I'd agree with her by saying, "Yeah." She'd get all pissy and say that I was ignoring her... But thing is, I wasn't. Ms. Tammy always has something to say, and I always listen.
I don't know why she thinks I'd disrespect her otherwise.
I felt bad for Terra, too. Cus eventually, whenever one of us would say something, she'd snap back and make it look like whatever we said was horrifying.
It was really weird, and it drove me nuts.
I could say something like... "The weather has been very nice."
And she could just be like, "Yeah, EXCEPT IT'S RAINING THE BLOOD OF OUR SOLDIERS IN IRAQ. WHAT NOW!?"
She didn't say that... but you have a visual now, correct?
It was basically horrible talking to her...
I really hope she was drunk or something... Because usually, I love talking to Ms. Tammy.
Joslyn's party has just bothered me...
I had fun, for the most part, but...
I just wish I knew what I'm doing wrong. x3;;
Anyways, there.
I vented.
I'm gunna... go ahead and continue beating myself up for the first reason; let it play around with my heart s'more.
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You, on the other hand, actually like him and pay attention to him and are much more than a mediocre artist. Therefore, you > laura.
Q.E.D