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Last night, I was coming home from doing some volunteer work at the Grade School of my school's Daddy Daughter Dance. I was a Boy Scout so I was pretty much forced to go. Basicly, I had to stop kids from coming to the 1st or 3rd floor. It was easy enough. Basicly, just sleeping and sixth grade girls hitting on me(I'm guessing cuz they didn't know me). When my dad dropped me off back home at 9:45 or so, he told me tell my Mom he was going to work. I nodded and got out of the car.

When I got in, my Mom was searching through movies to watch on OnDemand(we have Comcast Digital Cable). I made her pick Accepted. So we watched. Eventually, my sister, my dog and our Dad joined us(my brother was at a sleep over). When we finished, it brought us to the saved programs list. There was our movie...and two porn programs.

My mom's eyes turned to shock and her mouth gave a contorting that looked like she was holding back a scream. She turned to me and I shook my head, "It wasn't me." My sister was asleep. My mom turned her head to my dad, and he stared at her, looking guilty. All I said was, "I vote I go upstairs." Then I ran upstairs and left them to talk/yell.

The rest of the night, I walked around in circles in my room, unable to sleep. My life's going to be screwed over now isn't it? This is going to cause some kind of divorce thing and screw me up forever. Right?

Truthfully, I've lost all respect for Sean, who I no longer think of my dad. He's married, and has two kids. HE'S A CHRISTIAN! AND HE'S ALWAYS LECTURING ABOUT RESPECT! SO WHAT THE HELL IS THIS!? THIS ******** b*****d HAS NO RIGHT TO TELL ME ABOUT RESPECT! AND I KNEW HE LOOKED AT THIS STUFF BEFORE! A year ago, I snuck into my mom and dad's room on my elbows to catch some more Tv before I fell asleep. My mom was asleep. My dad was flippin through the channels and saw a porn program. He pressed info and looked at it. Put the volume real low and pressed it. Conveniently, it ended as soon as he pressed the button. I thought it was a one time thing and only told my friends.

SO what's gonna happen now? Is there going to be a divorce and my life will be screwed over? Or is something good going to happen? I don't know...I just don't know....