Daddy's leaving for Iraq tomorrow. He's been gone for 2 months already although it doesn't seem like it. I was surprised when I actually caculated how long he's been gone. It doesn't seem like he's been that gone but to my mom it seems like he's been gone forever. That's understandable though.
With him gone the house is definately missing something. The benefits (such as more computer time and TV time) just don't add up to him being gone and everything that's taken out of my family. The longest I've ever been away from my dad was 2 weeks prior to his being deployed. The thing that still gets me though is that he was supposed to be in the Navy Reserves, he wasn't supposed to be deployed and yet when they decided to make him active Navy again, they have him 18 days (yes...18 DAYS) to get packed and ready to leave on the fourth of January. I've kind of gotten over the fact that he missed my 16th birthday now that it's all over and done with but before my birthday I cried often at night and sometimes in the shower even. I don't know why but when I get the feeling that I need to cry I just do.
My kitties are very comforting though. Sometimes when I cry Pumpkin will crawl up on top of me when I'm under my covers and he'll crawl onto my chest and lay there licking my face. I don't know what I would do without them. My fish are turning 2 years old in a week or so (all 6 of them) and surprisingly they calm me down a lot too. They're so pretty and the way they float still has me perplexed and sometimes in awe of them. I'm thinking about getting a bird or too also with my birthday money. Using birthday money to buy a pet is becoming a tradition/annual thing for me because two years ago I bought my fish and their 5 gallon tank and everything for $60 or so and I've loved them so much. My sister got an orange and white hamster for her birthday later that year I think and named her Nadia. She's very old-looking now though.
So anyway, daddy called today to talk to us one more time before he leaves tomorrow. He asked me if I could play him one of the songs I composed on the piano more recently but I couldn't because I'm not quite finished and I want to play it for him when I'm done. It's gonna be awesome and my 3rd or 4th full song I've written.
I'm getting a shirt from the internet that says "My Daddy Wears Desert Combat Boots" and it's form-fitting and everything. Mom hasn't ordered it yet because she forgot that it didn't say anything about Iraq and she was still hoping there was a chance he wouldn't go. She'll order it soon though. ^_^ We're so weird. I have a bracelet that's red, white, and blue that says "Daddy" on it and my mom has two that say his name and have little charms on them that say "Navy" and "Marines".
Anyway, this entry is getting really long. If you read it, please please please leave comments. I would love something to read because lately I've been really bored.
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