Illusions
~3/27/05~
I'm so tired of trying.
So tired of all the crying.
I'm a glutton for punishment.
I crave more of my twisted nourishment.
It gives me what I need until my next fix.
Just the proper mix,
Of pain and sorrow.
To last me through tomorrow.
That old familiar feeling settles deeper in.
Until ever part of my screams out.
It fades into the darker side of myself.
I bring myself up.
Then tear myself down.
It's what I'm best at.
Thoughts race through my brain
And are gone as quickly as they come..
Only shadow-like glimpses into my soul.
I douse even the most miniscule flame of hope.
Knowing it is just an illusion.
Just part of my delusion.
~3/27/05~
I'm so tired of trying.
So tired of all the crying.
I'm a glutton for punishment.
I crave more of my twisted nourishment.
It gives me what I need until my next fix.
Just the proper mix,
Of pain and sorrow.
To last me through tomorrow.
That old familiar feeling settles deeper in.
Until ever part of my screams out.
It fades into the darker side of myself.
I bring myself up.
Then tear myself down.
It's what I'm best at.
Thoughts race through my brain
And are gone as quickly as they come..
Only shadow-like glimpses into my soul.
I douse even the most miniscule flame of hope.
Knowing it is just an illusion.
Just part of my delusion.
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"I crave more of my twisted nourishment.
It gives me what I need until my next fix.
Just the proper mix,
Of pain and sorrow.
To last me through tomorrow."